Sunday 24th June 2012 – The one where I …Talk about the weekly meeting and want to say it how it is

Staying Slimmer in the Summer

This weeks meeting was about discussing the pitfalls relating to weight loss during the summer months and strategies of how to overcome these

 

Quite frankly here in the UK we have not had the greatest summer (here is hoping we’ll at least get some sun!) but despite the miserable weather (torrential rain and flash flooding) many of the challenges we face following a weight loss plan are exacerbated during the summer months.

 

Socializing:  

When the sun comes out, tops come off and we all head outside to a beer garden/back garden.  It seems totally counter intuitive sitting in the sun drinking alcohol, but it is a lovely way to spend an evening, especially if you have had a long day at work.  As such there is a pitfall where you may end up drinking more than you usually would, on a day that you wouldn’t usually drink.

Britain is not a nation of barbeque heroes, however when there is a glimmer of sunshine (and indeed when there is not) the barbeques of the UK come out in force and then to proceed to char any number of food stuffs over hot coals. 

It is also at these occasions that over eating/drinking can occur.  Generally speaking barbequing is a healthy way to cook and you often have a number of salad choices.  But how many of us stop at just one burger (veggie or otherwise)? Or Sausage? Corn cob?  I do find this peculiar that when at home very few of us would make ourselves a ‘platter’ of food, with numerous burgers, sausages, fish, chicken etc?  Most of us would stop at one or two; the idea of eating outside/standing up seems to do very peculiar things to people appetites.

So what to do?  It would be so easy for me to say ‘Don’t drink, don’t eat’ but personally that isn’t what I’d do and I don’t want to be hypercritical.  So let’s get back to basics, Weight Watchers is not a diet it is a healthy eating plan, and within that plan you can have anything that you want (in moderation of course), so if you want to head out for a post work drink, do it.  Only make sure you put it on your tracker.  If you want to eat 4 spicy bean burgers (really do you WANT to eat 4 spicy bean burgers, REALLY?!) put it on your tracker, follow your hunger signals, look out for filling and healthy options, use your 49 weekly points, be a bit more active too make up the shortfall.

 Just because you are going out with your friends it doesn’t mean that you have to stuff your face with wild abandon, but equally you don’t have to be the party pooper, sitting in the corner drinking water and nibbling on bread sticks complaining you can’t eat anything because you are on a diet. 

Use some common sense and if you want to, you can stick to the plan and you can still lose weight, if you want to splurge and put on a few pounds, that is OK too.  Just don’t be too upset when the inevitable happens and you gain a few  (did you really believe that old adage that if you eat standing up it don’t have any calories!)

Holidays:

Ahhh the all inclusive holiday, a newish invention that has been the bane of holiday waistlines across the UK.  OK yes very often all you can eat, you are not in control of what is being cooked, you want to relax, Fuck the Diet!

 

Although you are not in control of what is being provided, you are in control over what you are actually going to eat. 

You need to have realistic expectations about what you want to see on the scales when you get back from holiday.  When we are on holiday you want to relax, and part of that is indulging in little treats.  But ask you self the question, how much do I want to gain?  And be honest, do you really want to gain 10 Lbs over 1 week?  10 Lbs that’s has taken you 5 weeks to lose?  If that is OK with you, great, if it isn’t what can you do as damage limitation?  Move more (swim I the pool not just sit by it), eat in moderation (yes it is ‘free’ but does it really mean you have to eat three of everything?), don’t drink alcohol during the day limit it to the evening (this is a health issue as well as a weight issue).

Relax and have fun, you don’t necessarily want to be thinking about your weight whilst you are on holiday, but do you really want to wake up every morning of your holiday with a hangover?  Do you really want to have to consume a family pack of Rennies to deal with your food hangover?  Treat your body well, you only have one of them.

Self Confidence: 

During the summer months self confidence can take a little bit of a nose dive.  During the cooler months you can hide yourself away a bit under layers of clothes if you do not feel confident about your body.  In the summer with shorter sleeves, shorter hemlines and fewer layers, our well constructed armor of clothing gets removed.  You don’t have to have issues with your weight to feel this pressure; recent shocking studies have found that 90% of women feel unhappy with their bodies.  However when you are struggling with your weight seeing others wearing clothes you wish you could wear can knock a little bit of the wind out of you, especially when you may feel sweaty or be suffering with chafing (yes people I said chafing!).

 Quite frankly unless it’s indecent you should be able to wear what the hell you like and say bollocks to anyone who may have a problems with it.  There are plenty of ‘larger’ folks who are out there who wear their bikinis/shorts et al with pride.  I feel so jealous of this self confidence.  I know that I am not alone about feeling that my wardrobe choices are limited because of my size.

I love clothes, I like to bust out some interesting clothing combinations, just because I am chunky it doesn't mean that I am any less interested in fashion/beauty, and in fact I am probably more aware of it as I want to make sure that the clothes I do pick look good and flatter.

If any of you are like me, when my self esteem takes a crash I go for the ‘comfort’ of food.  Lots of it.  Full of salt sugar and saturated fat. This can really knock any weight loss efforts I have made out of the window.

This point is a really tough one to overcome, but I want you to remember that most women short/tall/fat/thin have body issues, just because someone is smaller doesn’t mean they have any fewer body hang ups than you do and don’t feel any less self conscious.

So my advice here? Treat yourself well, don’t punish your body because it doesn’t look the way you want it too. It is really hard to say to people 'Love your Body' because it is such a hard thing to do, but do look after it and treat it well. Show off the bits you like. Stop comparing yourself with others.

I wish I was taller, had longer legs and smaller thighs. All of the wishing in the world is not going to change anything.  But I have luxurious hair, pert bosoms and a cracking arse (pun intended).  Take compliments, when people say you look nice, don’t think they are taking the piss, accept, it will make you feel a whole lot better.

OK I’ve been dwelling on the negatives but what opportunities does the summer give us to help us boost our weight loss?

Setting goals:  Some times the summer can knock our self confidence a bit (see above) but rather than let it batter it down, use it as a time to set yourself goals for next summer.

 There was a time when, come the summer months, I would be firmly ensconced in jeans, no matter what the weather, feeling hot and uncomfortable.  After joining Weight Watchers the following summer I was wearing skirts and dresses with leggings, this year I have been bear legged, and next year?  I am planning to make next summer the year I wear shorts (not short shorts, lets not get crazy).

Summer is a great time of year to visualise yourself next year.  Lets be realistic having images of myself looking as good as Kelly Brook in a bikini is slightly over reaching, but setting yourself realsitic goals is something we can all do.

Getting Active:  OK up until now (the sun is currently shining and it’s about 20 Degrees Celsius out) getting active outdoors has not been too appealing, but with the onset of the sunny weather getting active is hardly a chore.  Taking a walk in the evening sunshine rather than sitting on my arse watching TV is a pleasure.  Going for a bike ride to/along the seaside, playing Frisbee with the kids in the park, taking the dog for a walk in the woods, these things become something to enjoy when the sun is shining and not a chore it is a joy and an excuse to revel in the good weather that we get too infrequently in the UK.

It’s also a great opportunity to get out in your gardens (yes gardening is an activity too) weeding, planting, pruning and colleting the fruits of your labors (literally).  Washing the car, some vigorous scrubbing buffing (Ooo Sexy lol).  Clearing the guttering, up and down ladders (Not quite so sexy).  Having a go on the kids bouncy castle (strap’em down ladies), running away from a freighted heard of sheep.  Just because you are not wearing gym gear doesn’t mean it’s not activity.  Like the advert says every little helps.

Healthier Foods:  Summer is the fruition of the growing season and at this time of year there are so many fresh fruits and vegetables that are coming in to season, so not only are they low in prop points they are tasty and generally cheaper!

Summer weather is when I WANT to choose lighter (as as a consequence healthier) meals.  Salads are often unappealing in winter months, but with a plethora of fresh veggies and warmer weather salads is my meal of choice when the sun comes out.

 So when you are eating out or shopping in the super market, do you really want to eat the same foods that you can eat at any old time of the year?  Crisps, chocolates, pasties, cakes? When you can eat foods that are only going to be at their best for a few months/weeks of the year?  Buying local and in season, not only tastes wonderful, but helps the local economy and also you own pocket.

So like everything, taking on the summer is all about balance.  Yes there will be challenges, but that is true with everything in life.

Make the most of the sunshine, its not going to be long before (more) rain and autumnal weather return to our shores.  Get outside and enjoy it!

Do you find it easier to be healthy when the sun comes out?  Do you have any ideas of healthy activities/foods to make the most of this summer?

Wednesday 18th January 2012 - The one where I cant be bothered to eat

Breakfast:
X 4 Belvita Breakfast Biscuits: 6PP

Lunch:
X 1 WeightWatchers Bagel: 4PP
X 2 Tbs ELF Cream Cheese: 2PP
X 1 Rhubarb Mullerlight: 3PP

Dinner:

X 1 Portion Sausage & Mustard Plait: 10PP
150g New Potatoes: 3PP
Roasted Veg with 1Tsp Olive Oil: 1PP

Snacks:

X 1 Costa Medio Skinny Cappuccino: 1PP
WeightWatchers Hot Chocolate: 1PP

Total points:  31PP

Total Earned: 2PP

Challenges:
Still not eating quite right. Waaay under points yesterday ate unnecessary mini Toblerone just so it didn’t look quite so bad.  Also under points today as well but not by so much, forced myself to eat at lunch time, I regularly tell people off for not eating their points so feeling rather hypercritical at the mo. Didn't really eat a proper lunch, not that I didn't have the opportunity but because 'I couldn't be bothered'. The idea of fruits and veggies are turning my stomach. Refined carbohydrates are what my body is after, preferably in the form of cake or crusty white rolls. Obviously not bad in themselves but I'd rather not get into the habit. I wish I had someone to look after me, and then I would have someone to question my dietary choices. This reminds me, I have a blog post brewing about losing weight when single, it's not all fun and games you know lol.
 
Achievements:
I never thought I would say this on here, but my achievement is eating!  I’ve gone from a food monster to a faster in less than a week.  Weird.
 
Tomorrow:
Busy day, worried I may skip lunch again. The only reason I am eating anything that is vaguely breakfast related is that I have got those Belvita Breakfast Biscuits (seriously who thinks Biscuits are an appropriate food for breakfast?! Other than Lisa Snowdon obviously!) And it feels just like eating regular biscuits.

I’ve planned so I should stick to it, I suppose at least my lack of appetite should result in a loss this week!  I just don’t want it to become a habit, its not healthy.

Verdict:  Looking forward to getting back to my old self

Monday 16th January 2012 - The one where I get weighed and back on track

Breakfast:
X 4 Belvita Breakfast Biscuits: 6PP

Lunch

X 1 Cherry Mullerlight: 2PP
X 1 Olive Bread Stick: 5PP

Dinner:

ASDA Chicken Enchiladas: 10PP
X 1 Portion of Cherries: 0PP
X 1 Persimmon: 0PP

Snacks:

X 1 Star Bar:  8PP
X 1 Chocolate Brazil Nut: 2PP

Points Used:  33PP

Points Earned:  4PP
Weigh in Result: +2 Lbs

Challenges:

I have been sooo ill.  Although I like to be a drama queen when I am unwell, I mean it.  I had no Idea that a little tickle in the back of my throat could turn in to a major infection.  When I am ill I eat carbs and fast food neither of which is overly conducive to losing weight.  I was also ordered to bed for 3 days therefore no exercise.  Today was my first day back to work and it has been really tempting to eat rubbish.  OK I have eaten lots of processed food today (not something I feel fully comfortable with) but I was not in the vast quantities it could have been or as high in fat I desired lol.  Kind of feeling better, and I am hoping my urge for fruit will return.  I am a little bit gutted about my weigh in result, but it was totally expected.

Achievements:

I hit my points on the head today, first time in ages.

Tomorrow:

Busy day, as always.  Lunch has been planned and packed, if I get time to eat it is a whole other kettle of fish.  Planning to hit points tomorrow, no weeklies to be touched!

Verdict:  Good day, need bed now.  Night Night.

Friday 6th January 2012 - The one where I sport big hair and heels - The Aftermath

Have totted up the booze from last night. I did not stick to one drink all night as planned, but I stopped drinking at 11 and only stepped over my saved bonus points by 1.  However Thinking about it I must of earned at least 2 whilst out and about, I danced my socks off!  I am a little bit gutted I failed to take any photos of myself, however I am sure something will show up on facebook... My hair looked amazing, Beehive-tastic!

No hangover and feeling ok, however I am not sure today is going to be a good day food wise...

Drinks:
X 1 Double Ameretto (4) and Cranberry Juice (4): 8 PP
X 1 Malibu and Diet Coke: 2 PP
X 1 Lager: 3 PP
X 1 Southern Comfort and Diet Coke: 2PP
X 1 Shot Apple Sourz: 2PP

Total: 17 PP

Thursday 5th Jan 2012 - The one where I feel saintly

Breakfast:
X 1 Müllerlight Strawberry: 3PP
 
Lunch:
X 1 Wholemeal Bagel: 6PP
X 1 portion of Chicken and bacon sandwich filler: 3PP
X 1 Apple: 0PP
 
Dinner:
X 1 Portion of White Rice: 6PP
X 1 Portion of Peas: 2 PP
X 1 Chicken & Vegetable Ragu Thingy I made up: 5PP

Snacks:
X 1 WeightWatchers Mini Roll: 3 PP
X 1 Costa Skinny Cappuccino: 1PP
1/4 Pint Skimmed Milk - For tea: 1PP
X 1 Fudge Bar: 3PP
 
Points Used: 33
Points Earned: 4 - Still rocking that pedometer action
 
Challenges:
Going for coffee! Oh the cakes and biscuits look good, and as soon as I have resolved that I shall be having coffee alone, the barista asks the question "any cakes or pastries with that?" and it makes me question my resolve. But I didn't break!

Achievements:
My will power. I have had the option to have a BIG door step sandwich for lunch, I said no and stuck to my bagel. I had the choice of having Indian take away, I said no. I had the choice of having a a cake with my coffee, I said no. Rocking the plan for a second day running.

Tomorrow:
Heading out for my sisters Birthday and it's all a bit last minute. I pigged out on Sunday (you know last day of the holidays and all) and used most of my weeklies so I don't have a safety net. I have made a decision to go for Malibu and diet coke (the very thought of vodka makes me feel ill) and I have budgeted for 5. Unfortunately I am also not sure what I'll be having at dinner so I am not sure what the damage is going to be points wise.  I am going to aim for a fruit laden lunch, and skip the bagel and aim for some thing a bit less pointy. I really don't want to undo all of the good I have done over the last week. Fingers crossed.

Verdict: gooood!

The one where I reflect on 2011

11 Things for 2011?

I set out in 2011 with a to-do list for 2011 so before heading in 2012 I thought I would see how well or not I did.  2011 has been a rollercoaster year, especially with the illnesses of both my Mum and Dad.  However I am looking forward

1.    Take a photo of myself at every weigh in.  I have not really tracked my progress and this should be an easy way to do it. – This one I failed miserably at, I’ll probably give it another go, but I am not making any promises!

2.    Cook at least 3 meals during the working week.  I have a terrible tendency to use ready meals or rely on cereal when I get home from work; I am determined to cook more. – This I have managed to do, up until I became ill in September

3.    Run (not walk) a 5K.  This was one of the things on my list for last year and for various reasons (mainly laziness) I didn’t achieve it.  I am determined to do it this year. – Yay I did this.  OK I did it slowly but I did it.  This was one of my major achievements this year, I remember when I started I could barely run 50 yards

4.    Develop a Love Life.  Last year I wanted to find some friends in Colchester, and I think I have done that (hopefully).  Next stop love life, I have no idea how to start with this point but it’s on the list so I will at least try.  Possibly sorting out numbers 5 and 7 may help! – Another epic fail.  Possibly a little bit ambitious, because I have no idea where to start!  Another

5.    Wear more make up.  It may seem stupid but I think for my self esteem and confidence I need to spend a bit more time making myself look good (better) even if I don’t necessarily feel it inside. – This has happened!  Saturdays and Sundays I prettify even if I am just popping to Tesco.  Also unusually I have been putting on make up to go to work… just a little bit.

6.    Buy less packaged fruit.  I spend a fortune on it, it is quite obscene really, obviously a better choice than a chocolate bar but I buy it too often.  More whole fruits for me. – Although still a part of my diet, I have eaten loads of whole fruits.  Figs, persimmons, grapes and Satsuma’s have been the go-to fruits this year.

7.    Go to bed earlier.  I am quite naughty and often stay up late (Ssshhh even on a school night) but not enough sleep is prematurely aging and I don’t want to hit 30 looking like I am 45. – Actually much to my surprise I have been setting my alarm to make sure I am in bed for 10.30.

8.    Spend some time on me.  With work and life it sometimes does not give me enough time to live, I am going to try and set aside 30 mins a day to spend on me not distracted by anything/anyone else. – I have kind of done this; I have been spending at least 30 mins reading (also improving my brain).  I had also aimed to try to blog every day (for a bit).  So this is a tick!

9.    Aim to eat Vegetarian for at least one day a week.  Not only do I want to lose weight I want to be healthier and I don’t think eating huge amounts of meat is all that healthy – I’ve done well with this, veggie stir-fry’s, goats cheese pies, roasted vegetable quiches, all great meal alternatives.

10.          (Purposely) Exercise at least once a week.  OK I walk all of the time, and the bonus points do rack up, yes they help but I want to do more.  I don’t think I will ever be one of those people who are addicted to the gym, but I would like to be one of those people who enjoy exercise when they do it (I think this one might be a bit of a stretch) – Thank god for Zumba! I have been pretty active over the last year.  I have jogged more and I have developed a love for Zumba.  Such a pity my class isn’t running in 2012, going to have to find a new one because I certainly don’t want to give it up.

11.          Be happier at the end of 2011 than I was at the end of 2010. Nuff Said really – Was feeling rather depressed this time last year.  OK I have had a few low points in 2011, and quite frankly I can’t wait to see the back of this year and start 2012.  But I am feeling so positive about the coming year and this is a definite tick.

So bring on 2012!  And my 12 things to do in 2012…

Happy New Year everyone!

Saturday 12th November 2011 – Day 14 – The one where I am feeling sorry for myself

Saturday 12^th November 2011

Breakfast:
None

Lunch:
X1 M&S Olive Ciabtta Roll: 7PP
½ Can Heinz Chicken & Vegetable Soup: 5PP

Dinner:

x1 Tesco Finest Chicken Tikka Masala & Rice: 22PP

Snacks:

X5 Almonds: 2PP
20g Dried Mango:  2PP

Points used today: 37

Weekly Points used:  0
Activity Points Earned:  0 – Having a much deserved rest

Challenges:

Not feeling good again today, I am hoping it’s to do with the new pill I am on rather than another bout of depression kicking in just in time for Christmas.  Feeling lonely, taken for granted and generally unloved.  You know the usual.

I wanted to know what my triggers were for falling off the wagon and binge eating, and I have well and truly discovered them this week.  I am lonely.  I want to keep things as positive as I can and come up with a solution, rather than wallow in self pity.  I have come to a conclusion therefore. 
I think I may need to leave Colchester. 
I just do not have the support network here that I need.  Although I love my meeting, that is only once a week, I have a life for the other 6 days too.  Although I supposedly have friends here, it is very difficult to see from my current position, I have not seen any of my 'friends' from Colchester socially in months.  I did put it down to me withdrawing a little bit.  However the fact that no one actually noticed spoke volumes to me today when I was thinking about my current situation.  It would be good if I appeared on someones lists of priorities as opposed to being the person you can always blow off/rearrange/ask for a favour.  I think about my friends how I can help and support them, I inconvenience myself to help them, but quite frankly it appears to me that no one has thought about me in a very long time, and I very much doubt anyone has inconvenienced themselves to help me out.  I'm not going to make any hasty decisions, I can't really afford to move at the moment.  But for the sake of my mental health and weight loss journey, I think I might need to.

Its quite a big step really to come to such a big conclusion, and it is hardly something that is easy to fix.  I keep saying I will get there, with this though I am not so sure.  Its a horrible thing to realise you are not liked.  I thought I was coming to a point in my life where I was becoming happy with who I was, but obviously who I am is not good enough.

Sorry for the downer, needed to let it out.  I really hope its the new pill, it says mood swings, and I am like a freaking pendulum.

Achievements:

I didn’t order a takeaway!  I really have had the urge to stuff myself with Chinese food; however the practical side of me did kick in eventually.  Its just not cost effective to order Chinese takeaway for one, unless you order a mountain of food.

Tomorrow:

Weigh in tomorrow.  Even with my ‘not so good’ days this week I am actually within all of my points allowances.  I would love a loss of 1.5lbs but realistically 1lb is what I am hoping for.  The rest of the day is a bit of a blank.  I may involve a cake from Greggs though.

Verdict:  Food wise fine, life wise a bit shit

Friday 11th November 2011 – Day 13 – The one where I spend a lot of time in Clacton

Friday 11^th November 2011 

Breakfast:
X1 Hobnob Medley Bar: 5PP

Dinner:

X2 Bread Rolls:  11PP
X1 Tbs Sour Cream & Chive Dip:  4
X1 Kettle Chips:  7PP

Snacks:

X10 Almonds:  4PP
X1 Small Semi-Skimmed Hot Chocolate: 6PP
X2 Slices of Crunchy Peanut Butter on Toast: 10PP
X1 WeightWatchers Chocolate & Vanilla Biscuit:  2PP

Points used today: 49

Weekly Points used: Yeah, not any of those left, I am in to the BP’s
Activity Points Earned: 8

Challenges:

Today was a snack day.  I have been in Clacton most of the day, no time for lunch and freezing weather (when I say freezing its not actually freezing it was a bit cold and windy).  Therefore hot chocolate was required whilst waiting for the train, it was lovely, and I was very cold.  I possibly could of spent 6PP on something more filling, but I don’t care, I was freaking cold.

Mmmm Hot Chocolate

Feeling better today, I think my long and busy days are doing me in a bit.  I know I don’t have it bad by the standards of many, but 50 Hour weeks are currently killing me.  Trying to pack too much in.  The weekend is there for me to relax and that is my plan.

Achievements:

Massive will power not to pig out on pizza, still not the best day but I still have BP’s left (5!).  So although not the best couple of days Sunday should be OK.

Also I have remembered to actually write on here, was sooo tempted to just to go to bed, but in the words of the legend that is Roy Castle ‘Dedications what you need’.

Tomorrow:

Mmmm not sure what to do tomorrow, I quite like the idea of a DVD day.  Grapes, DVD’s, fizzy pop and pajamas.  That’ll probably not happen, but wishful thinking.

Verdict:  Chilly!

PS.  An emotional day today, Armistice day.  I hope everyone took a moment of their day to remember those who have fought for their countries and never returned.

Thursday 10th November 2011 – Day 12 – The one where I binge eat

Thursday 10^th November 2011

Breakfast:
X1 WeightWatchers AppleBar: 2PP

Lunch:
X1 Mini Cheddars: 4PP
X1 Tuna & Red Onion Sandwich: 12PP

Dinner:

55PP – 1 and ¾ my daily allowance

Snacks:

X1WeightWatchers Chocolate & Vanilla Biscuit: 2PP
X7 Refreshers: 1PP

Points used today: 76

Weekly Points used: All of them
Activity Points Earned: 10, feet starting to ache from all of the walking, looking forward to Saturday

Challenges:

The day was going well, tired yes (Bernadette on the phone to 2am… and only to because I banged on her door and told her to shut up), but the day was going well.  College not too bad, however there is one woman for what ever reason has taken a dislike to me and has chosen to ignore everyword I have said and refuses to even look at me (I think that was the start of my bad evening).

I came home and was exhausted and feeling restless, got changed and headed out for awalk.  Never before have I said this but I wish I had sat in the chair and zoned out watching the telly.  I have had far too much time with my own thoughts for my own good and for what ever reason they are incredibly negative.  I personally find this really odd as I am an optimist, I try to have a positive outlook, promote others to think positively but for what every reason I am not being very nice to myself, either physically or emotionally, at the moment.

On my way home I headed to Tesco for the sole purpose of buying food for me to binge on.  I know a lot of people say that they binge eat, but often I feel they don’t really understand what a ‘proper’ binge is.  I have done it myself.  Today however was an official binge, huddled in my bedroom shoving as much food in as possible in the shortest amount of time possible.  Some people smoke, somepeople drink, some people do drugs… Me I eat.

I am too embarrassed to put on here what I ate, I’m going to out the points and let your imaginations do the rest.  I feel terrible for having done it, I feel disgusted with myself.  My only consolation is that I did not buy the ‘on sale’ tub of Pralines and Cream Haagen Das Ice cream in Tesco, and quite frankly it was very close.

I am hoping that I am just over tired and have spent too much time in my own company.  Here’s hoping.

Achievements:

I am still racking up my exercise points, andhopefully they are going to mean I haven’t totally blown weigh in

Tomorrow:

The night where I am supposed to be going out, butI haven’t heard from the friend in question (again) so I will be in (again) on my own (again) with half a bag full of food that I didn’t eat tonight.  One person pity party! Yaaay!

Verdict:  Feeling a little bit sick

Wednesday 9th November 2011 – Day 11 – The one where I work my butt off

Wednesday 9^th November 2011

Brunch:
X1 Cranberry and Oat Cookie: 2PP
X1 M&S Prawn & Mayo Sandwich:  11PP

Dinner:

M&S Count on Us Chilli con Carne:  10PP
X1 Tesco Garlic Bread Slice:  3PP
X1 Portion Pineapple:  0PP
X2 Figs:  0PP
X1 WeightWatchers Chocolate & Vanilla Biscuit: 2PP

Snacks:

X10 Cashew Nuts:  2PP
50g Mango Dried:  4PP
X1 Bottle Lucozade Sport Hydro:  1PP
X1 Cadburys Scream Egg:  6PP

Points used today:  40

Weekly Points used:  8
Activity Points Earned:  20!  8 from my Pedometer, and 12 from Zumba (40xHigh=10, 10xMed=1, 10xLow=1)
 

Challenges:

The snacking monster reared its head today again, didn’t do too badly dried fruit and nuts, but I did accidentally eat a Scream egg.  It fell in… whole…  Over all my chocolate in take is well down on usual levels and I am hoping it will stay that way for a while at least.  I am going to try the ‘Green & Blacks’ method having of smaller quantities of higher quality chocolate…It didn’t work last time mainly because it was the TOTM and the cravings were obscene.

I didn’t let my Scream Egg lapse lead me down the path of a chocolate binge ad chose the healthier options for the rest of the day.

Achievements:  

Seriously 20 BP’s… It feels so good to see that number.  I know WW recommend earning 7 BP’s per day but Zumba is really high intensity and that is how the points fall.

Tomorrow:

Busy day and late night, a combination that often results in mindless snacking especially when I am at college

Verdict:  Exhausted

Tuesday 8th November 2011 – Day 10 – The one where I am really greatful for my Costa points... Free (ish) drinks

Tuesday 8^th November 2011
Breakfast:
Mini Cheddars: 7PP
Costa Skinny Hot Chocolate: 3PP

Lunch:
Melon Chunks: 0PP
Mango Chunks: 0PP
x1 Ski Strawberry Yogurt: 2PP

Dinner:

Rice & Vegetable Pilaf: 7PP
Roasted Vegetable & Goats Cheese Plait: 9PP

Snacks:

x7 Refreshers: 1PP
x1 Small Skinny Cappuccino: 1PP
x1 WeightWatchers Chocolate & Vanilla Biscuit: 2PP

Points used today: 32... Yay

Weekly Points used: 0
Activity Points Earned: 5... Another day of being a walking machine, again in the rain

Challenges: Actually a straightforward day, for once, OK I needed to say no to cakes and pastries but i didn't have enough Costa points anyway. I also needed to resist the delights in the Poplar farm shop, but I chose a veggie pie for tea, and not massively pointy either, I just said no the the luscious cup cakes.

Achievements: Guess who is on points today? That'll be me! Usually I tend to spread my weeklies over the week, but I NEED some booze on the weekend so I am going to go easy on them... That's if my ever so flaky friends don't let me down AGAIN.

Tomorrow: Another busy day tomorrow, actually most of my weekdays are busy, I am actually in the office for the chunk of the day, which means snacking, and also as its Wednesday its sandwich day.

I've got a fave sandwich of tuna mayo and red onion, which as fillings go from the lighthouse is one of the lowest options, I've got fruit to go with it. It'll make a change to have a big lunch, and will mean that I won't need a snack before I head off to Zumba... Yes thats right I am making my return, its sooo needed and that 11BP I'll earn will aint to bad either.

Verdict: Wow I've eaten allot of vegetables today... I'll pay for that tomorrow

Monday 7th November 2011 - Day 9 - The one where I

Monday 7th November

Breakfast:
x1 WeightWatchers Baked Apple Bar: 2PP

Lunch:

Isn't this the dinkiest bottle of water
you ever did see. 
A complete handbag essential

x4 Cups of Water: 0PP

Dinner:
X1 M&S Chicken & Mushroom Bake:  13PP
x1 Portion McCain Nicely Spiced Wedges:  7PP
x1 WeightWatchers Rich Toffee Bar: 2PP

Snacks:
50g Dried Mango: 5PP
x1 Bounty: 7PP
Points used: 36PP
Weekly Points used: 4PP 
Points Earned: 5PP

Challenges:
Other than my'snack' breakfast I didn't eat at all until I had a bounty on the train.  And I barley had a drink.  I was so very hungry when I left work I headed to Tesco for a snack.  I could of really gone to town, OK a bounty is not great, but one bounty is better than a four pack of bounty's!  Along with the bounty I also got some dried mango.  Again not the lowest of points but great for an energy boost and one of my five a day.
Achievements:
Self restraint, I could of so easily lost it.  OK not the lowest points today, but not the highest either.
Tomorrow:
Another really busy day, Chelmsford then Marks Tey, both with coffee pit stops possible.  The coffee itself is not necessarily the problem its the associated cakes, tray bakes and biscuits.  Plan?  Don't take any money other than for my fare, sorted!
Verdict: In plan but not healthy... I really need to work on healthy REGULAR meals.

Sunday 6th November 2011 – Day 8 – The one when I talk about the meeting and weigh in

Gosh, it’s been a week. I have blogged every day, nothing terribly exciting mind you, but I have blogged. I have to say in many respects it has worked. I am far more conscious of what I am eating now as I am going to have to broadcast it to the world! To admit I had a skanky McDonald's made me feel a little bit ashamed, as I know how bad it is for you, but I suppose with everything moderation is the key.

So a summery of the week: Positive, Dehydrated, Good, Knackered, Grumpy, Caffeinated, Passive-Aggressive (I wouldn’t like to hang out with those Dwarfs)

Bonus Points Earned:  37 (I am a walking machine)

So drum roll please weigh in result is…….-1.5lbs

Today’s Meeting:

We have mainly been discussing...Food labeling...

I have to say not one of the most inspiring topics but useful all of the same. Not that we really talked too much about labels to tell you the truth.

Today we had a trainee leader, Angie, take the meeting, and it was great to meet her. She started off a little bit nervous, but you can see she has the potential to become a great leader. It was great to hear her story, she has lost 5st (70Lbs), and she looks fantastic, as this is the amount of weight I still have to lose it was really inspiring to find out about her weight loss journey.

Following on from the meeting last week on positivity, I started to think about how motivating other people’s journeys are. I did talk about using others as 'thinspiration' last week, but I did not realize how much of an impact following others weight loss journeys really has on me.

 

The new WW magazine has just come out, it is one of my 'must buys'. The first section I look at is the success stories, I find them so uplifting and reassuring that the plan works. The same for the website, I love looking at the success stories online, as well as people posting in the community how well they have done at their weigh in.

No matter how much I may enjoy them however, I do often find myself getting frustrated that the magazines will frequently feature people who have only* lost a moderate amount of weight and I would love a few more features on bigger losers, after all I have loads to lose and I want to see someone who reflects my journey. That is why I found it so inspiring to meet Angie today.

I found it reassuring that Angie was able to talk about the fact that not every thing about her weight loss was easy. That honesty, though for some may find off putting, I find refreshing and relatable. One of the things I love about my leader Suzanne is that she isn't perfect when it comes to WeightWatchers, and that she is going through the same ups and down as her members. This makes her so much more approachable and you know that when you discuss that you maybe struggling with her, that she has been through exactly the same situation. I don't think there is anything worse (when it comes to WeightWatchers, I know there are plenty of worse things in life) than a leader you cannot relate to.

Post Meeting sporting new Hat
Scarf and Gloves. Cute Huh! Lol

I am always on the look out for someone that can be a role model for me (I know it is a bit of a tough ask, 30, single, stupidly busy job, non-driver, PCOS sufferer, 5st to lose... Anyone?!?!...Didn't think so) but I suppose there are aspects of many people that I can take inspiration from even if they are not exactly like me in every respect.

So a big thank you to Angie and Suzanne, all of the folks on WeightWatchers online and in the magazine for sharing their success stories, for all of you on the community message boards sharing your highs and lows, for all of the members at my meeting and all of my WW buddies. Thanks to all of you for inspiring me to do better. One day I'll get there and hope to inspire you guys in return.

*I say only like its a bad thing! Please do not misconstrue my comment as dismissive to their journeys, any weight loss no matter how large or small is an achievement.

Sunday 6th November

Brunch:

x1 Costa Cappuccino & 1 Sugar: 2P
X1 Costa Banana & Pecan Breakfast Loaf: 11PP

Dinner:
x1 M&S Ciabatta Olive Roll: 7PP
x1 M&S Beef Lasagne: 18PP
x1 Belgian Bun (With no Cherry, what’s going on with that?!): 11PP

Snacks:
x1 WeightWatchers Chocolate & Vanilla Biscuit: 2PP

Points used: 51PP

Weekly Points used: 19 but not all of them babies

Points Earned: 0PP Mainly laying down...

Challenges:

Not to eat all of my weeklies! I mainly achieved this because it was sooo cold today (the first 'proper' day of Autumn) I left town without completing all of my shopping and couldn’t be bothered to head to the pound shop to stock up on snacks lol. Have been enjoying a lazy afternoon in my room watching a crap film snuggled under a fleece blanket. Bliss.


Achievements:
OK no pedometer today, certainly with the tightness of my dress that was not going to happen!

I did not eat all of my weeklies. I have enjoyed my treat of lasagne (considering I don’t like cheese I often wonder why I like it so much) and a cake, but I do not need to eat anything more.

I do not have anything planned socially over the next week (I seriously need to sort that shit out, I am starting to take it personally that my friends don't want to hang out with me) but I really want to save those points for some booze. I have not had a drink in I-don’t-know-how-long and with all of the work stress that I am under I am feeling the urge. However I hate drinking on my own so they may very well get spent on some Pizza next weekend.

Tomorrow:
Another day of stupid busyness, I am going to struggle to eat and drink for most of the day, however I have got dinner for tomorrow planned and ready to go therefore I am not going to use the 'well I haven't eaten all day' excuse to pig out on crap. Fingers crossed.

Verdict: Feeling better, and the most positive I have been for a while